Castor

I remember a plant with leaves
palm on outstretched palm
nine-fingered each
long I thought, without remembering its name
before I was decapitated
I shouted out
castor   castor

I remember he said something
about wanting to burrow
from my vagina to my womb
so that I’d be pregnant with him
give birth to him
so that I’d love him
as with a child
unconditionally and always
I remember saying nothing
a buzzing noise came from my mouth
like seeds being chewed to bits
castor   castor

蓖麻

蓖麻

我记得有一种植物的叶子
像一个个摊开的手掌
每一片都长着九根手指
我想了好久也没记起它的名字
在快要被砍头的时候
我大声喊出
蓖麻蓖麻

我记得他说
想从阴道钻进我的子宫
他希望我怀上他
然后我就能生下他
如此我便会像爱一个孩子那样
无条件而永远地爱他
我记得我没有接话
我嗡嗡叫着
好像嘴里嚼碎了一把种子
蓖麻蓖麻